Diabetes Denial - yikes!

I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes in April 2012. I started this blog in June 2012. It is now September 2012 and I've only written one post and seen the doctor once. Can someone say Diabetes denial? This is the deal....

I am self-employed and so is my husband, so health insurance coverage has not been steady in our house. We have it when we can afford it. For years, I was simply worried about the children being covered and not myself. So we covered them. Yet when I was able to secure health insurance for myself this year, I thought I'd go to the doctor and finally get myself checked out.

Well to be perfectly transparent, I was taking my mother to her doctor and while I was there asked about a check up. They said that they could see me right then and there. (I must have looked horrible that day and they took pity on me:)

A week later, my doctor called and said that I had type 2 diabetes.

I was shocked. I'm still even stunned typing the words on this blog.

Now I am a very educated as well as rational, human being. I know that once I received this diagnosis that I had work to do and to be fair to myself I've done some...

1. I've been reading up on diabetes.
2. I watched a PBS special on diabesity (the doctor's made up word).
3. I've included more fruits and vegetables in my diet. Well, just vegetables. Still working on fruits.
4. I cut out all soda. A big vice of mine.
5. I told my Godmother and Godfather and one of my best friends, but that's it. I haven't even told my family. Oh wait, I told my mother who is in a nursing home with dementia because I needed to tell her but knew that she wouldn't remember it 10 minutes later.

I'm still craving horrible foods like cheeseburgers and I miss Pepsi but still am trying to make small changes.

I am working through a lot of feelings about this diagnosis and probably going through the stages of grief -- and seem to really stuck in the place of "denial".

My goal by the next post is to go back to the doctor and get new blood work to see if my dietary changes have been helping and to get back into the gym that I pay for every month!